happy halloween - 10/31/25

i didnt do much today, i nearly forgot it was halloween. im gonna be playing psychopomp gold as well as dashbored later. ive been enjoying dashbored quite a bit. nic is a total pathetic bum which i find weirdly entertaining. i havent gotten far in the game yet but i think its pretty good! its nice to explore earlier work from an artist/developer you already love, just to see how theyve improved over the years. psychopomp is also a good spooky-ish game for halloween, so at least im getting a *little* festive :p

a lot to look forward to - 10/29/25

im so ashamed and angry and i feel like i hate myself more than anything in the world but i think everything is going to be ok. im going to see underscores live in a week. i think i still want to get a kitten. my birthdays coming up soon, ill be 17. another year i thought i wouldnt make it to. im glad im still here.

ill rename this later - 10/27/25

PSYCHOPOMP 2 IS COMING OUT !!!!!!!!!!!!HOLY SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!im so So SO fucking excited. i cant even describe what this game is doing to my brain chemistry and its not even OUT YET. the parallels THE PARALLELS!!!THE LORE!!!!!THE SYMBOLISM!!!!!!!its SO fucking good please if youre reading this and you dont know about psychopomp GO BUY PSYCHOPOMP GOLD RIGHT NOW AND PLAY IT!!

searching - 10/24/25

i dont think france has a lot of emos. i guess im just missing home again, but ive been trying to get a feel for the local emo/metal/whatever scene. im not finding it. back in cali i could spot an emo kid in any random town, but here? ive seen maybe two or three TOTAL (besides myself of course). im going to a concert next month though, maybe ill find someone kind enough to be friends with me who could help me out. theres gotta be SOMEONE out there like me. theres no way im in this alone.

more updates - 10/23/25

i forgot how addicting it is to invest yourself so much in a project. ive added a lot to my site in the past few days (mostly songs to my music page and blinkies to my main page). i think next id like to add my art and photography to the stuff page, as well as a page for my roblox ocs!! id also like to play around with more css stuff and make my site more fun/pretty. i might even remake my logo thang...

collages - 10/22/25

ive always held onto this idea of "being a collage of everything and everyone ive ever loved". i think this site is a good representation of that collage. ill keep updating this for a while.

moving - 10/21/25

ive been getting "settled" in marseille for a few weeks now. moving all the way from southern cali has been hard. i dont know any french and im not enrolled in classes until november. i miss my home. its only another year-and-a-half-or-so though. then i can move back. find someone to move in with. make my life my own again. i hope i can make it. i dont want to ramble too long but im scared. i cant stand feeling so trapped here and im scared ill get worse again, ill come home an empty husk of a person again. i dont know. i wish i stayed. sorry this entry is so emotional and serious compared to the rest of my site. future updates will be more lighthearted :,]

BONG HiTS 4 JESUS - 4/20/25

what do people even do with blog pages. anyways ive been updating a lot of stuff on here today i feel my brain rotting out my skull. how do i make these Medias the right size on different devices I have no idea. sorry mobile users. phones suck anyways xP

test article - 4/16/25

this is my first blog entry !! :] ive still got a lot of work to do on this site... unfortunately ive been a little unmotivated recently but i think i will lock in now :D